too coward

dear fellas,

sorry 

so sorry

too coward

yes I'm a coward 

I'm too cowardly to tell about that

act

talk

I just can act and talk like it never happened

I'm getting sick from this month begin

I hope I'm getting better than yesterday, even this day

I hope tomorrow will gimme some.....






I don't know (deep breath)

new chapter

March, April, and June now...

Well, for the first I'm writing again. I don't write anything for March and April. Yes I don't know, ehm maybe I don't wanna know and I don't wanna talked about that too. There's something weird, awkward, and maybe something silly. And now, for sure I don't wanna go back. 

June,

Yesss really excited for this month. I'm a freelance writer, for Latitudes.nu now. Yes yes my first article is talked about culture of Betawi: Kerak Telor Recipe - A Traditional Betawi Recipe

Yes, that's my first step to became a journalist. 

Yes for June, I'm ready for new chapter. Here is a song that I do like to Auto-replay until 5times while I signing-in and checking something on my blog.

after that, what ?

Dear, ______

Slowly fade away and get more blur perfectly.
Slowly fade away...


s l o w l y

You've tried, I've tried too, and at least we've tried. It just unfortunate situation.

See ya in the next chance when it's possible then.

For this time, I just can keep guessing and keep asking with myself.

Maybe something missing, something gone, and maybe something getting wrong, maybe.

So please, would you tell me please, what's going on ?

I'm in completely

It's been gettin' me down.
Maybe something happened.
I don't know how deep I stuck.
I can't believe too for this situation.
Just enjoy with for sure.
Yes,
yes,
yes for sure,
yes I'm in completely.

too much

Don't have enough sleep, just have something that swimming in my head.
Feel something but express something else.
Mean something but say something else.
Too much thinking will make your head explode.
Now , I just can’t stop thinking. Even it hurts, well I don’t care right now.
Even when people said “just go with the flow” is a bullshit ever, yeah maybe I just can choose them.
But, limits of patience that I have, I wish I can control them lately.
Why you're so different than the others?
Why?
I just can wish to myself to be patient, to be fine, to be balanced, to be kind
And so what happened here?
Tell me, am I fall?